What I think about now...

Now that I know about my conditions there are new thoughts that pass through my mind everyday. Am I going to have kidney problems in the future? What if I get in a car accident and my one kidney becomes injured? What if I have trouble getting pregnant. I know that there are a lot of options for me when it comes to pregnancy, but it doesn't mean that it won't be scary when I choose to finally take the path towards parenthood. Am I drinking enough water to help keep me kidney healthy? Am I drinking too much? I get scared about eating too much salt, or drinking too much alcohol. I find it hard to limit myself with some things because I feel that since I am still so young I should be able to do what I want. Whether that makes me sound like a selfish brat or not, that's how I feel. Until last year I was asymptomatic. In fact, most people don't find out that they were only born with one kidney 'til later on in life. On one side of my brain I feel lucky that I found out, so that I can try to take better care of myself. On the other side, I feel like sometimes it's all that I think about and could of gone another decade without knowing.